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A few nights ago, I went to see a friend of mine, Irish, DJ’ing in 2nd Life. When I got there, Irish was playing a song from a musician I did not know. The artist’s name is Leonard Cohen and the song is A Thousand Kisses Deep.

As I stood there and listened to Leonard’s aged voice sing the haunting lyrics of his song, I began thinking about recent events in both my 1st and 2nd Life. Speaking to the those things and people and events in one’s life that we cannot change, as well as, accepting paths we could not envision, this song touched me in ways that are difficult express.

Endings… Things that will never be… Journeys not to be taken… People left behind…

And quiet is the thought of you,
The file on you complete,
Except what we forgot to do,
A Thousand Kisses Deep.

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And sometimes when the night is slow,
The wretched and the meek,
We gather up our hearts and go,
A Thousand Kisses Deep.

Wow… These words give me such pause and send chills through me. 

This year began with so much joy for me. I had made a real effort to change my life and karma, personally and professionally. Good things were happening. And then… My life took control away… A Thousand Kisses Deep.

That is what I felt and feel when I listen to Leonard’s song. As sad as that seems, though… A Thousand Kisses Deep also reminds me that when one door closes another truly opens. Closure always brings opportunity, a fresh beginning.

It is this ebb and flow of opportunity and closure that defines us and our lives. It is the balance of all that has taken place, rather than any single episode or period, that matters.

So, remember fondly those people and the paths that were and could have been. It is okay to do so. With that in mind… Embrace your present and look to your future, knowing it is filled with opportunity and fresh beginnings.

Or in the words of Leonard Cohen…

I’m turning tricks,
I’m getting fixed,
I’m back on Boogie Street.

This is my Avatar.
There are many like it, but this one is mine.
My Avatar, without me, is useless.
Without my Avatar, I am useless.

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For some reason, this avatar reminds me of this clip? Anyone else?? Lmao… Enjoy!!

The first Lifestyler to grace the pages of iDoleo.com is Mindy. Mindy is a 30 something, shy submissive (sometimes switch) that hails from the Czech Republic. I met Mindy quite by chance while killing a little time perv’ing profiles at the House of V. 

Mindy was off to one side of the bar dancing by herself. I took notice of her because her avatar was sporting a wonderful full wrap around set of braces. I was intrigued. When I read Mindy’s profile, I found that one of her fetishes was orthodontic braces and specifically orthodontic headgear. Having not encountered that particular fetish before, I IM’ed Mindy to introduce myself. What I discovered was a charming submissive with a wonderful and playful personality.

We chatted for a bit at the House of V and I introduced her to iDoleo.com. With Mindy receptive to doing an interview and photo shoot for iDoleo.com, I knew I had found my first Lifestyler.  We TP’ed to a more scenic location and spent a fantastic afternoon getting to know one another while capturing some fantastic images. 

So… What’s the scoop on Mindy? As I said, she is a shy submissive and sometimes a switch. She is in her 30s and is located in the Czech Republic. Mindy is currently unowned, but has been owned in the past in both 2nd Life and 1st Life. Her sexual preference is for males and she is in 2nd Life because she loves meeting new people from around the world. She also enjoys using 2nd Life as a way to learn about and try things unavailable to her in 1st Life. 

Mindy’s fetish for orthodontic braces and orthodontic headgear is a bit unique. At least I feel it is unique. Exploring this with her during the photo shoot, Mindy revealed that she finds orthodontic braces and headgear highly erotic and loves them for the restrictive and humiliating nature of wearing them. This all fits in well with some of Mindy’s other fetishes, like chastity belts and using Restrained Love Viewer (RLV) in 2nd Life. 

I had a blast spending time with Mindy and… I must admit, I did find her braces more than a little erotic! A great person… A great submissive… If you see her out and about in 2nd Life, she is pleasure to get to know. Don’t miss the opportunity, if you see her!

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Happy Birthday Pete!! What a great Rocker!! Pete is a true original and real inspiration. Thanks for all the wonderful music throughout the years.

This is my Avatar.
There are many like it, but this one is mine.
My Avatar, without me, is useless.
Without my Avatar, I am useless.

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• SG: I think he’s hawt for TM.
• TM: Me?  Oh hell no!
• TM: He looks like he belongs on My Big Fat Gypsy Wedding.
• SG: Oh come on admit it… You like the prim beard thing?
• Alec: No worries… I got your back TM.
• TM: Well… There is something about a guy who can rock a bad 90’s hair cut and a leather jacket but no shirt.
• TM: Rolls her eyes.
• SG: Spews water across my keyboard.
• Alec: That’s how I look in 1st Life.
• SG: But… With less hair.
• SG: Ducks
• TM: Yeah… I’m gonna need to see pics to back that one up!!

This is a difficult blog post for me to write. It involves feelings and emotions that will always be with me, one sided as they might be. One part of me does not want to express myself or explore these feelings, openly or otherwise. Another part of me just wants to let go with a flood of pure emotion. 

Writing helps, though… So, with tear filled eyes, I will do the telling.

As some of you know, I am recently out of a 1st Life D/s relationship I loved and never wanted to end. I never thought it would end, actually.

After little more than a month, I reach out to the submissive that I once called mine. I sent her a text message and told her I missed her. I told her I still wear the knotted leather bracelet she bought me as an outward symbol of our relationship. Like her collar, this bracelet expressed my commitment to her and to the promises I/we made. 

With the text message sent, I waited. An hour past before I received a response. It was not the response I had hoped for. It was short and somewhat cold and did not have the caring feel of the submissive I loved and knew as mine. It had the feeling of finality.

The response I got back filled me with all the same emotions of loss that I experienced the day our relationship ended. It affected me in profound way that is difficult to express in words. I read the text message, then reread it. I looked at the bracelet on my wrist. I looked back at her reply. 

I began to write my own response… I was empty and numb and my text back reflected those feelings. I ended with… “I know this must feel right to you. It will never feel right to me. Take care.” I sent it.

I watched the progress bar side from left to the right as my message was sent. Then, it was done. Sent. Silence. I waited a few moments. Silence. I waited a few minutes. No reply came back. 

I looked at the bracelet on my wrist. I reach out to it with my free hand. Touched it. Gripped it. Squeezed it around my wrist. Then, slowly, began to remove it. I went to unclasp the leather loop from the leather knot. The knot came undone. It untied. The bracelet fell off my wrist and laid in my lap broken. 

I just looked at it, empty and numb. Broken, promises… Broken, heart… 

Warning… This is a blatant feel good post!! About time, right?? Lol.

I love cool crisp Spring mornings. I love them even more when I am driving down the road in my open Jeep while blasting some righteous tunes (Yes, I just said righteous). Today’s destinantion… Day one of a two day soccer tournament with my son.

A quick stop for a coffee and a hot chocolate and then the urban road for an hour commute to the soccer fields. With my coffee in hand, I have my son dial in some music. For me… Jamiroquai, Chicago, and, of course, Hall & Oates (You can never have too much Hall & Oates!). For my son… AC/DC, Aerosmith, and Nelly.

What a great morning!! What a great time with my son!! My lesson to you… Enjoy these moments, and others like them, when they come.

Here we go again… Yet another attempt to keep this blog current and relevant. A lot has happened to me since my last post back in August of 2011. I left 2nd Life for a bit and returned. I lost Mimi, my wonderful and beloved pet of more than three years, to 1st Life and issues the two of us could not resolve. I recently found and lost my Chia (Samirah), a submissive and D/s relationship that will never leave my heart. All hard lessons learned with very high emotional costs. 

Christ, how I have changed over the years since 2004. This was pointed out to me the other night while talking to a dear friend of mine named Gemini. Gem and I have a long history, good and bad. Through it all, though, Gem has always been an objective voice and, in many ways, my barometer and conscious.

Gem reminded me of who I was… Who I am… Who I need to be. Tough talk to hear from a friend that can be brutal. Sad how 1st Life and 2nd Life can take its toll on us all. Hard to accept we create our own reality, especially so after traumatic episodes in our lives.

All that said… Life does go on as long as we live and breath. Doors close and open everyday. And yes… I meant to say close and open rather than open and close for a reason. Stirred and shaken, I know who and what I am. I know what I want. As I am the sum of my losses and triumphs, so this blog will be reborn and reenergized (at least for a few posts…lol). Enjoy!! Please stop back to see the new posts and the new sections.

Thanks for the support and the read!! See you around the grid…

Okay… Okay… I know I have let this blog fall into a terrible state of disrepair. Time to make an effort to mend the damage and get things hopping again.

To be honest, I have not really been in  2nd Life all that much. As I tend to do, I lost my drive and reason for being there. It happens, especially when one has been in 2nd Life as long as I have. Early 2004 seems like several lifetimes ago!!

Over the past year, not much has changed in 2nd Life, in my opinion. I still feel like the “golden age” of 2nd Life and other virtual worlds has come and gone. That said… Other grids and virtual worlds continue to pop up and grow. 

The BDSM and Gorean communities also continue to disappoint. As much as I like to create and build, I must say… The continued lack of quality people inside 2nd Life makes it difficult to be there and participate in any meaningful way. 

With all that said… I did greatly enjoy writing this blog and it is time for me to get off my ass and write again. So, if you see out in the wilds of 2nd Life, feel free to say hello. 

Take care for now and keep checking back. New posts and content are coming!!

At the suggestion of a couple of readers and another blogger and virtual creator, I setup a moderated comments system for idoleo.com. Readers now have the ability to post comments and feedback to posts through Disqus.

All comments will be reviewed and posted once approved. That, however, does mean every post will be approved. I respect others opinions and thoughts (and…have a real desire to incorporate them), but I will always retain all editorial rights concerning this web site and blog.

Enjoy!! 

Well… The new Amazon store for :Doleo: is now open and online. It will most certainly change over time, but it is off to a good start. You will find relevant products there to the scope of this web site and blog. Stop by the Amazon Store link to the right of this post to have a look around. If you would prefer a direct link, here it is: :Doleo: Amazon Store

Welcome to the :Doleo: web site and blog!! My name is Alec Inglis and I am a resident of the virtual world known as 2nd Life. Rough and a work in progress, I’ll be working hard over the next few weeks to flesh out the site and whip it into shape.

Designer, Builder, and Terraformer in 2nd Life, I am also a real time Dominant 1st Life. With that in mind, I am hoping this site will be a provocative, but enjoyable read with a broad range of topics, both professional and personal in nature.

An exploration of the raw and the cooked… As the renowned anthropologist Claude Levi-Strauss might say.